confused by these feelings

how to make you happy, I almost gave up live all. I have many words said in vain, for you believe in love precious. My strength has kept you preserve my love but you just never miss. I really can not, at any time until you really can not hate I can not. can be difficult for me, very difficult I can not separate all the love and hate that I guess. what do you understand my own grief? without you I feel lonely, have long been waiting for my own silent waiting, half-hearted because you love me sick